the run down
I have been so busy as of late.
Here’s the run down:
I have been getting treated for PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). This is most likely a result to the stimulus I was exposed to in war. I am a combat veteran, having served in over 350 combat missions under Operation Iraqi Freedom as a medic. I have been feeling bouts of anxiety and depression as of late (for a while) and I decided to go talk to a doctor about it, since I feel I was I denial about the whole situation. The doctor believed I needed to be treated for PTSD. I got to see a psychiatrist now. How embarrassing.
I have quit drinking. Well, the doctor gave me some medication that I am not allowed to drink with, so I haven’t. I don’t even have the desire to drink physically. Sometimes I get into social situations where I am used to drinking, but I have decided to chase women and be sober instead of drinking. What a substitution I know…. I could be taking this medication for the long term, so drinkingis out. I don't miss it one bit. I feel freer than I ever have. Actually, I feel great; i feel better than I ever have in my life.
I am preparing to separate from the Army. Yeah, I get out of the Army soon. I am a little anxious. I feel as if the medication that the doctor is giving me is causing me to feel better, but I don’t know if I will be able to afford to take it after I get out of the Army I also have become a bit institutionalized from the military lifestyle and I will need a little time to become “deprogrammed”. In addition, my day-to-day job is becoming more and more difficult, but more fulfilling at the same time. I am preparing my soldiers on how to carry on in my absence.
When I get out of the Army, I am trying to go back to school, I am trying to get into a certificate program, which last about a semester. Afterwards, I want to attend culinary school and get a related degree.
I also want to go on vacation. I am ready to go anywhere. I am preferential to places in the United States. It’s soon time for a road trip.
That’s about it.
I am busy/ crazy/ anxious/ etcetera.
C’est la vie.
posted by blackcaesar at 17:18
8 Comments:
Hat's off to you for seeking help. It takes a strong man to do that.
If you can't afford the meds after your discharged, let me know. I am fairly skilled at finding secret free med programs.
So glad you're feeling good. You deserve to feel good.
I'm so happy to hear that.....now maybe instead of just eating bread you can make some too (lol)
I forgot to add seeking help is nothing to be embarassed about, in fact it's commendable and shows how strong you really are!!
Most people never get another go round in life. Good Luck with yours. I hope you find what will make you feel like you fit in this crazy world. I know you will miss the chow and BDU's LOL! Best wishes to you and Baby Girl.
i'm glad you got help. it'd be worse than ignoring it and allowing it to control your life. i've seen a psychologist before and i was glad for it. she helped me work through alot of pain.
good luck on separating from military duty. i had a boyfriend who had no clue about how to operate in civiliian life. i think he would have done better had he 'deprogrammed' himself.
I am glad to hear you are getting out...you are free now...best wishes to you
Wow. I come back from a 24 hour workshift to wake to a veritable outpouring of support. Part of me was expecting someone saying, "I knew your ass was crazy!" I guess I was wrong. you all make me smile (not in a brokeback kinda way...)
@ steven tucker: whats up! I have been systematically giving up alot of "impurities" in my life over the course of time. i will still find some sort of vice to keep me impure. I haven't figured out which one to not quit, but i don't have very many vices left...
@ diane: i should be able to afford the meds i gound out... the meds should coust about 2 dollars a month or so. how much i will be charged is another thing all together. hopefully i can arrange to get the meds from the VA medical center...
@ alli: eat some sun dried tomato bread or some fresh sourdough.... tastey!!!
@ kim: thanks for the encouragement. i don't have your audiobook?
@ msInstyle: don't make me come out to barstow and tear that place up! you know i want to come out there! that might work. you have inspired me to eat way more healthy and i will always appreciate you for that. the california pizza kitchen awaits.
@ nikki: i am programmed now, i will not be later, i promise you that. i will be late to everything, on purpose!
@danyel: iread your last post. it was a bit psychotic!LoL... No just kidding. I am real busy, but i love to interact with you all here. this blog has led me to identify alot of myself, along with the feedback from most folks...
@ kween: i am free now. I will be frrer later. I am happier and optimistic.
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