buy myself/ rambling...

okay, i admit, i buy flowers. i buy them for myself. i use them to make my apartment brighter, smell and look better. it is too sad that genetic modification has rendered most cut flowers available to the retail market smell-less, due to cross pollination issues. they still will remove CO2 from the environment and replaceit with raw O2. O2 gets me high on life.
It never fails, when i buy flowers, some woman will comment on the concept that i am buying them for some female. either i have three lovely women to cater too (i buy three bunches a week) or i am in a hell of a lot of trouble with one particular female. Neither is ever the case. In fact, i would never buy flowers for a woman again, it is too cliche. I like too have flowers in my home to boost my mood. flowers represent a particular ideology to which i subscribe. "flowers attract bees, and bees like to sting". in this concept, i respect the beauty of the world, but at the same time i recognize the existance of the relative pain that coexists within...

besides, i have no woman to buy flowers for anyhow.


icant stand women/ i love women.
i feel alot of times the downfalls of being in a relationship with a woman outweighs the benefits. in my perfect realm of existance, a man meets a woman, falls in love with a woman, shares his life with a woman, and lives happily ever after. NOT!!! Man never realizes the price of said relationships if the woman has a change of heart. f a woman with whom a man has pledged to share his life with (particularly through the institution of marriage), decides that she wants to get up and leave, for any reason whatsover, a man will be designated to give a woman a portion of his relative earnings and a portion of whatever materials he may have accumulated, regardless of what means the materials were acquired. That is to insure that the woman will remain comfortable by any means. When a man and woman are joined by the bond of holy matrimony, it is a mans duty to provide happiness for his bride or else, she will leave and the first scenario will be revisited. if, by chance, the woman stays, it will cost the man; the cost is irrelevent to the happiness of the man. Do not let there be any children in the mix!!! Having children in the mix will guarantee that you will forever be responsible for providing clothing food and shelter for said woman, even if she is not raising the kid!!! the best thing the goverment could have done to keep population booming in its land was to make it profitable for women to have children. If only men would realize that the cost of female interactions can and should be considered a viable means of birth control. You WILL pay for the pussy one way or another. No wonder prostitution has always been around. fuck a woman, but i do love the pussy. i really like everything about a woman from afar
the way a woman is built,
smells,
walks,
sounds,
feels,
tastes,
smiles.
i love the sight of a woman bent over the sink, doing dishes;
i like flirting with the female cashier when its time to pay;
i love the sight of a woman in uniform;
i hate to see a woman cry;
i love the sight of a pregnant woman;
i like any hairstyle a woman could have, even bald.
i like the sensous curves of a woman's midsection, no matter her size.
i love the sight of someone elses woman.
i love a long legged woman.
it is easy to find so much to like about a woman when she isn't concerned or determined to facilitate your downfall. infortunately, i attribute that quality to most woman i meet.
it is for that reason i have become increasingly self sufficient. My mamma always told me to never depend a woman to cook and clean, etcetera for you or you will always be indebted and/ or reliant on a woman for yor existance. i'll never let it happen. Sadly, most woman i meet will take offense at my self sufficient ways. A woman will try to find a way to fit in to a relationship and mostly is will be doing the womanly things that she think will make her seem feminine in the eyes of her suitor. i never meant to lessen a woman's importance but i can pay my own bills, cook , clean, etcetera... i just cannot reproduce by myself. don't get ot twisted though. i could always mentor someone elses child. hence, satisfying my fatherly needs.

Still i will always find a spot for a woman in my life.
in my heartbreak hotel,
i got room for one.

On a different note. My soldiers are going AWOL at an alarming rate. Alcohol abuse among the ranks remains high. Depression and a loss of self is omnipotent. I am glad none have committes suicide. i think it is inevitable that one of my soldiers is on the verge.



why blackcaesar?
the evil that men do lives after them
the good is oft interred with their bones.
-billy shakespeare (paraphrased)