island

No man is an island, entire of itself...
-john donne

the existence of one, upon the earth, is always chronicled in reference to the existence in others. One is the indiginent blend of all of the people and experiences that they have met along the journey called life.

in my life i have been influenced by, as well as influenced others. some interactions were positive, while others were not. it is with this concept that i anwer the following question: "why can't i be all things to all people?"

sometimes, i really enjoy the company of others. it breaks the monotony of conversing in soliloquoy. it is especially pleasant when one has interesting viewpoints as well as being open to concepts and views other than held personally.

i am often careful of the people that i associate with. i have a strange way of influencing people to live life in ways that they ordinarily wouldn't. sometimes that is good, but not always. it is never my intention. in fact, i prefer not to have my personal actions influenced by what others expect. i'd rather live for my own expectations.

everyone has a view of what they want to accomplish in the quest for success. my ideas are not the same as yours. is that such a difficult concept to grasp?

it is unpleasant when someone forces themselves into your life as if their particpation is essential to your existance. my life is led "by invitation only". i accept no party crashers.

there are basic fundamentals of humanity that i expect my associates to possess. loyalty is paramount; if i find you to be incapable or unwilling, you will be excommunicated. truth is essential; i can lie to myself- without your help. respect.

i may ask too much. i do not care. i ask nothing of others that i do not offer. in the end, i really matter.

i really matter? if i fall in the woods and no one is around to witness, do i exist? did i fall? the world may never know.