this little life o mine

one's position in life's social statosphere defines one's life accomplishments.
the true measure of mans sucess is how he is seen by others.

i will never understand why this is

i wish that i could go inside
evaluate the contents of self
and
be satisfied with the contents
or
make variations as needed.
i cannot
every measurement needs a standard
a point that can be relatively compared

my point of reference
for objective purposes has been zero.
it is that concept that allows me to view
negatives and positives
based on my own acceptance of right and wrong.
if i am truly a man
i should be able to make my own measure.

i have never met a man
that
i was satisfied by his representation of manhood.
probably because no man is perfect.
i also have a bad habit of being too influencial to others.
i have picked and chosen the best qualities of man
that i percieve
and incorporated them into my own existence.
the problem is
many attributes
are fatal flaws.
ambition will be the death of me.
imma blog again today
i promise
i got some shit on my mind
lordamercy