the human condition

the human condition is _________?

when faced with death,
i want to go out on my own terms.
i dont want to be a sniveling coward.
yet,
is it so wrong to be scared of death?
i think my real fear is of the unknown.
i am equally afraid of death as i am afaid of life.
uncertainty,
thats what makes a coward of me.
i am not alone.
the human condition is universal.

i have always had a love/ hate relationship with food.
sometimes i would like to have a good meal over good company.
sometimes...
i have never eaten one morsel of food that i felt
i would die for...
at least, not now.
when i was younger, i thumbed my nose a death.
i figured that if i'm gonna die,
i might as well have some gravy with that.
who would figure that same gravy would really kill me.
it wasn't good enough to die for.
yet, here i am cursing out the fried chicken of yore.
even though,
it really was "to die for".

it seems as if everything that i would die for
eventually loses it's importance...
nothing is permanent
except, the human condition